Drawing the Curtains

Yes, it may seem as though I dropped off the face of the earth lately, but I think maybe I've just been hiding out. Lately I've had this desire to be a little more secretive...not sure why...I guess I haven't liked the idea of my personal stuff floating all over cyber space. I cancelled my MySpace and Facebook accounts, maybe because I've been watching one too many morning talk shows about stolen identities...or maybe because every once in a while I don't want people to "watch" me.

I feel like Bobby is always in the spotlight and, therefore, so am I. Not that I'm trying to sound negative...it's just how our lives are. I have a weird dichotomy to my personality...I really love people, love being around new and different people, love working in customer service and sales, enjoy being out and about. But a lot of times I just like being invisible, lost in my own little world where I'm not a pastor's wife or the "hostess with the mostess" or even an "example" for people to model things after. I like being JUST a normal, everyday wife and a mom, tripping over laundry and flicking wet Cheerios off my feet. I like to be a kid who enjoys smelling pretty flowers outside, and I like sometimes feeling a little naughty while I'm reading cheesy romance novels. I like to play around with new shimmery eye shadow colors and getting excited about the new series of Tim Gunn's Guide to Style.

And yes, I guess I'm just a homebody, and while Bobby likes all the attention that is poured over him constantly, that's not what drives me. I'm the definition of an introvert, even though I never realized that until just a few years ago. I always gave the idea of being an introvert a negative glance, but I've realized that there's nothing wrong with me, just different in the ways that I get "fueled." And a lot of times my thoughts are processed simply in my mind, instead of over the internet. This blog was never meant for people to "look in" on my life and be impressed with how many "hits" I've gotten. No, this was meant for me, to download things in my life and stuff I'd like to remember.

So, if you're keeping up with my little blog for whatever reason, don't be disappointed if you haven't gotten a newsflash in a while or the latest picture. I'm probably somewhere with my baby, or reading, or doing laundry, or playing outside, somewhere that doesn't involve being glued to my laptop, you know, spending time with the things I love most. I like being a little private with myself and my family because so much of our lives are "looked in on." Not that I mind those parts either. I guess I'm just drawing a few curtains these days.